An influencer from Florida has swore off sex after her last breakup, she revealed why she has chosen celibacy, saying ‘no man deserves’ to take her to bed.
Neyleen Ashley, an erotic model, with millions of fans on Instagram as @neyleenashley and loyal content subscribers on OnlyFans, says she now finds real-life sexual encounters to be uninteresting, as the men she meets aren’t interested in real connections.
The 34-year-old, who has 2.5 million followers on Instagram, explained that as a recovering ‘sex addict’, her celibacy journey is also a path to give her inner peace.
Despite accruing almost $55,000 per month on OnlyFans, she says she’s not ready to break her vow anytime soon, even though she has a ‘high sex drive’.
‘I decided to be celibate after my ex told me he didn’t want to be a father or a husband, and he wasn’t living his truth,’ the model told Nude PR.
‘I found myself having to scramble for a place to go, after leaving his place, and having to go to work and take care of my two kids, 11 and 15, while enduring heartbreak.
‘The breakup and pain I endured put such a bad taste in my mouth about sex. Now the enjoyment and euphoria I once got from sex is gone.’
The model said her heartbreak was made worse by a recent tragic loss in the family, one which made her ex to flee, instead of showing support.
‘I was four months into my pregnancy with a baby girl, I even had a gender reveal — but I lost the baby at month four,’ she said.
‘Less than a month later, still bleeding from the miscarriage, my ex told me he didn’t want to be with me anymore.’
She adds that the shock from her break up now makes her worry about who she is sharing her bed with.
‘I’m afraid of people that just want to use me for sex, and never get to know me as a person, or my heart,’ she said.
‘I believe that energies get transferred through sexual intercourse and throughout the last few years, sex made me feel empty afterwards.
‘Never fulfilled, never loved… I felt like a rag doll.
‘I was a sex addict for a long time. I couldn’t leave the house because I was at home masturbating and had to have sexual release multiple times a day, if not, I just couldn’t function.
‘It felt like a cigarette. I had to take a puff off, or I couldn’t go about my day without my fix.
‘That also came with the attention I was trying to receive from men, the sexting, the pictures back and forth, the dopamine hits I got from successfully pursuing them.
‘But still left me starving, because I was settling for crumbs in people, instead of loving myself.
‘Now I only love myself – in every way – I’m practicing self-healing, self-love, and self-soothing, and giving myself the energy I previously gave to others.’
Despite her current lack of sex, Neyleen insists she is still nurturing her dating life.
‘I find [dating] difficult because I instantly tell anyone that’s remotely interested in me that I’m celibate, but when we hang out, it always ends up that they want more.
‘They try to convince me that my celibacy journey will end with them, that I won’t be able to resist – but I’m a Leo, and if there’s one thing about Leos, it’s that we’re hard-headed.
‘When I’m met with kindness, and understanding people, that’s what they will get in return.
‘Sometimes I feel like I want to give in, because it’s what I’m used to, but the benefit is I don’t have to feel like a chore to these men that don’t care about me.
‘If I could stay celibate forever at this point, I would.
‘But who knows – this is a new journey for me, and I’m loving it more than I love sex.’
